Chemolog

Meditations while battling cancer, 2018.

• IntroductionJun 2018
• MassOct 2018
• The waiting place - getting staging informationOct 2018
• Diagnostics: the bone marrow biopsyOct 2018
• still waiting...Oct 2018
• Mortality in the mundaneOct 2018
• The space betweenOct 2018
• chemo starts tomorrowOct 2018
• Notes on possessionOct 2018
• Letting goOct 2018
• meditation with Eugene; meaningful contributionOct 2018
• x-mas eveDec 2018
• Notes on attitudeDec 2018
• A boy and his emotionsDec 2018
• today is the day - let's go!!Dec 2018
• First chemo infusion - recapJan 2019
• The opportunityJan 2019
• controlled movementsJan 2019
• On quality of lifeJan 2019
• My quantified chemo-selfJan 2019
• Network effectsJan 2019
• More notes on fearJan 2019
• Burn the boats, cut the hairJan 2019
• An ER visit - neutropenic feverJan 2019
• Back from the hospital - neutrophil counts back upJan 2019
• Day 7: first week in reviewJan 2019
• OscillationsJan 2019
• The power of decisionFeb 2019
• Chemo round 2 recapFeb 2019
• On self-injectionsFeb 2019
• On focusFeb 2019
• Chemo round 3 tomorrowFeb 2019
• Round 3 recapFeb 2019
• Chemolog: day 55Feb 2019
• Chemolog: day 58Feb 2019
• Chemo round 4 - this morningFeb 2019
• chemo round 4 recapMar 2019
• Chemolog: day 76Mar 2019
• The upcoming CT scanMar 2019
• CT scan results...finallyMar 2019
• Tomorrow, round 5Mar 2019
• Round 5 recapMar 2019
• RBG - a quick thank you noteMar 2019
• My birthday yesterdayMar 2019
• Heading to Tahoe to escape this pollutionMar 2019
• Escape to TahoeMar 2019
• Round 6 coming upApr 2019
• The art of pausingApr 2019
• Round 6 this morningApr 2019
• Round 6 is doneApr 2019
• Round 6, day 8Apr 2019
• Goodbye Grandma; PET/CT scansApr 2019
• chemolog: day 135Apr 2019
• The test results (a punch in the gut)Apr 2019
• Second-line treatment decision treeMay 2019
• The biopsy - tomorrowMay 2019
• Biopsy todayMay 2019
• Waiting for biopsy results (been here before)May 2019
• New years eve - and finally a win!May 2019
• Biopsy results, part 1May 2019
• Biopsy results, part 2May 2019
• An interesting development...May 2019
• Still waiting on next steps...May 2019
• decisions - getting closer and UCSF second opinionMay 2019
• To Kauai!Jun 2019
• Leaving Kauai; pattern interrupt; the scanJun 2019
• A follow up meeting with KaiserJun 2019
• I qualify for the CAR-T trial at StanfordJun 2019
• Stanford meeting this morningJun 2019
• The Stanford opinionJun 2019
• Lymphoma society conference; a holding patternJul 2019
• The executor of instructionsJul 2019
• Calm before the stormJul 2019
• Creating pauseJul 2019
• Symptoms?Jul 2019
• Chemolog: day 196Jul 2019
• Getting healthy; more fear of progression; nightmaresJul 2019
• As if a dreamJul 2019